2024 - 1st quarter.

 Hello my dear friends!

its is 2024! Had a good starts of 2024...

January, completion of my house renovation and my brother's wedding! Welcoming our new family member and hope that there will be additional member to our family soon! Get to see all my family members except for 2 of cousins cause both of cousin got married in November 23 and December 23 separately. Within 100 days, they cannot attend close family member's wedding. That was such pity that we are unable to share happiness face to face. 

February, Chinese New Year (Year of Dragon). First time i travel back to my boyfriend's hometown for CNY. Spent the holiday at Raub before travelling back to Seremban then head back to Johor. We spent our Valentine Day this year at Johor. Very simple, he brought me a stalk of rose, i brought him for a nice steamboat at Southkey. 

On the side note, we have applied for BTO in December 2023. The reason being there is a project near my house, so we both decided to try our luck. The result was notify to us after CNY holiday. We had a out of supply number. We are still hopeful to get that project.

End of February, there was a SBF near my house. Again, we try out luck. Result will be out in Apr. After much consideration, we still prefer the BTO project. So finger crossed, and get no number this time round. But if we get a number within the supply, we dont mind getting one too. That project is in a strategic place. But as always, SBF price is so beautiful and i just scare that just a little burden to afford. But well, god has it way for us.

Another good piece of news, my another cousin will be getting married in June and the other cousin is planning to get married end of the year. Our age is so close and like once one got married, it follows by the other. Erm, maybe JJ is exceptional. She got married before COVID and the rest got married/getting married after COVID.

All of them keep asking for my date. Well, we shall see when boyfriend will propose. But we did had an agreement in 2023 that we maybe will get married in a year or two later. See how bah. Still the same, there is a lot of uncertainty.  

March, busy busy month. He went off with his first business trip of the year at a new location. While i am in Singapore dealing with people with a professional fake smile for the entire night. Lots of work line up till month end. Oh yes, not forgetting Rika's first birthday tomorrow. Aww, such a sweet baby. Godmama adore you much and wishes you good health.

This almost conclude the first quarter of 2024. Story will continue... 

XOXO

2023

 yooooo..

I'm back after 3 year since my last post. I'm surprised that i didn't blog during COVID period. Well, i am more active in other social media.

On Sunday, I realised one of my inactive social media account - Twitter aka X was hacked and posted stop animal abuse campaign. Immediately, I tried to retrieve my account. After multiple tries of email combo with username, i finally managed to get the email notification to change my password. That account last post was in 2018 and was only used to retweet SuJu's tweet. It was lucky for me to recover my account and change the password. 

Well. I did achieve a milestone that i set in 2020. Met new people and got myself a boyfriend in 2021/2022. 

Still contemplating whether to go for a driving license or not. Like, this has been on my list since i am 18. It is a skill yet not so relevant to me. I do not have a car, i do not need a car and i dont think i am financially free to own a car at this point of time. Cause i am considering a bigger asset of my life. That is a HDB flat. 

One thing to clarify, i am currently looking at the single flat. Not thinking of marriage yet. Nope. Don't ask me why, cause i will tell you i am not so ready to get married to my boyfriend. 

We are happy as it is now. Deep inside me there is a lot of insecurity and uncertainty, but i just don't know what is it and why. Just not the ding moment that strike me that he is the Mr Right for the rest of our life. Not at this moment. Well, live the life now and we will see how. 

Probably, we are still learning. Learning how to love, learning how to become one instead of two. It's been probably 8 years since his really let go of his ex, and for me, i am single since 21. Of course along the way, i fall in love, have a crush but it all did not turn out well. After a long chase in a secret crush, i was rejected in the face after a nice hangout for his birthday celebration. That year i was 23, and was a little scarred. It took quite a long while to heal but time was the medicine and of course some reading for self love. 

Then moving on, got to know this guy friend and became very close for 1 years or maybe since 2017.  It was just a feeling, maybe something beyond good friends but no leading to boy-girl like or love. But i would said it was a good experience where you have companionship, listening ears and probably some good advise and insight to other's life. We drifted in recent years after he broke up with his girlfriend. His girlfriend was 4 years younger than him and they are are not living in the same city. So insecurity increased and it got worse after my friend lost his job. He was jobless for a year and did not do anything, not even visit his girlfriend during his free time. So ended up, they became apart. 

erm.......... i drifted too much from what my HDB thoughts.... 

Gonna stop here.

Period.

2020

3 years since i have blogged. I am more active in my other social media than this.
Well, i would said that because i spent most of my time at work so during my free time i would rather not type but just to spend my time watching drama/video or even play online games.

I have to admit, i lead a rather boring life ever since i changed my job in 2015.

Yes, a little milestone achieve to stay in this company for 5 years and my last job i stayed for 4 years. Time files, i have also completed my degree in 2018. Somehow, i felt so empty after completion of my degree goal. Like i have more time to spend with my family and friends, more time to stone and more time for myself.

Its strange to slow down after being so busy for the past 4 years of perusing my degree. I tend to look for option to fill up my time. Option like.... getting a driving license, getting proficiency in Korean Language, getting proficiency in Japanese Language and getting a boyfriend. But none of them work out in 2019.

So in 2020, i hope i can fulfill my goals:

1) Getting a driving license
2) Pick up my Korean Language again
3) Proficiency in Japanese Language
4) Getting a boyfriend

Speaking about my last goal.. My mum is the cause of it. She has been wanting me to get a boyfriend and get married off. Probably secretly wish to have grandchildren soon. okay, i understand that at her age of 60 plus of course hoping to have grandchildren to look after. Though she mentioned she is not going to do that, but i know she will. HAHAHAHAHA

Well, to me at this age i am not sure if i have the patience to slowly adapt the pace, character and habits of my partner.

Okay, i shall be positive.

Yes, i will.

And yes, COVID-19 hits almost the rest of the world. Because of this virus, it hit us again that China is still a communist country. Alot of things going on at the ground zero - Wuhan. Everyday down to every single second, tragedy happens.

It is sad in this modern world that people are going through this, and because of the advanced technology we got to know more about their life. However, when government interfere, internet was block and people have no rights to speaks about what is going in within the lockdown states and even in their neighbourhood. Yes, it is sensitive period.

all the best and stay healthy.

你好不好

能不能繼續 對我哭 對我笑 對我好
繼續讓我 為你想 為你瘋 陪你老
你好不好 我好想知道
別急著把我的愛丟掉

我只需要你 在身邊 陪我吵 陪我鬧
別用離開教我 失去的人最重要
別說 你曾經愛過我
讓我們回到那一秒
你好不好

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或许时间是一副很好的药剂
你并没有离开，甚至把感情深埋了
而我，独自面对着后知后觉的情感
你潇洒的转身，牵起另一个人的手
我只能看着你们往前走，很多时候我拼命的超越你们想走在你们那的前面
对你们的一切视而不见

其实最残忍的，是最无声的

我会把那份情感深埋
转换成该呈现的情感

。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

对我好　对我好　好到无路可退
可是我也很想　有个人陪
才不愿把你得罪　于是那么迂回
一时进　一时退　保持安全范围
这个阴谋让我　好惭愧
享受被爱滋味　却不让你想入非非

就让我们虚伪　有感情　别浪费
不能相爱的一对　亲爱像两兄妹
爱让我们虚伪　我得到　于事无补的安慰
你也得到模仿爱上一个人的机会
残忍也不失慈悲　这样的关系你说　多完美

Rangoon Memories

KCPSS moved into Rangoon Campus in 2002 when i just got into Secondary 1.

So after 10 years since i graduated from KCP (OHMYGOSH, ALREADY 10 YEARS?! ), i decided to walk down the memory lane. Okay, time really flies and unknowingly it's been so long. Everything seems so yesterday.

First i went to Google-ed some history of the location. It was surprised that before we moved in, the campus was occupied by it's original school Rangoon Road Secondary School (Farrer Park). In 2001, the school was merged with Balestier Hill Secondary School. So it was vacant for 2 years before we moved it, i thought it was vacant for like 10 years kind. The whole environment was like a 80s 90s setting when we moved in. I remembered it was like walking into a different dimension once we walked down the lane before entering the school gate.

Below are some picture i found on the internet, it still remains the till we moved out. Recently the major blocks are torn down and replaced with a modern building. Rumor of the last standing blocks remain scary cause there is unseen guarding that patch of field which is just behind the block hence it could not be demolish. When we are the occupants there, quite a number of sighting of the unseen during the evening. I personally encountered several encounter in the evening when we are preparing to pack all our stuff back to our original rebuild campus in Bishan.

Let me share the most scary encounter that i ever had. The story goes...

I was left alone in the block (that is currently the only one left if you visit that campus) at level 4 (highest level) packing up our CCA room (NPCC room). Lots of stuff, ranging from equipment to old photo album, i clearly remembered that it was around 5.30pm when all of my friend left me for going to outside mama shop to buy some drinks and some went to the main block to look for our teacher in the office. I was alone packing one of the cabinet that has lots of files when i discovered very old album and photos of my seniors who had become our CI and HO. So i place my butt on to the cabinet shelves admiring the old noob photo of them, laughing out loudly (cause no one mah). Just then, from my back (Inside the cabinet) someone laughed together with me when i flip over to the next page of the album. I startled and jump out of the cabinet, and that was the last time i stayed in the room and the building ALONE.

Actually before i was left alone, one of my malay friend who is my BFF did asked me a weird question with regards to the cabinet but i brush her off cause deep down within me i know something isn't right but i choose to ignore. Isn't this sounds like typical horror movie setting before scary stuff popped out?

Okay, let see some old photos from the internet.










This one is the last standing block that i mentioned (Photo courtesy by Ka Sing Choo) and yes the last level (level 4) where i had that ghostly encounter. PS, it on the right side of the building where the laughter stunned me.



The foot of the last standing block, i remember this door is our bookshop and the corridor leads to the field. There is a toilet at the side that i don't feel too good about it too. Every time whenever we had activities that requires us to meet early in the morning, we need to walk pass and or use the toilet (cause at level 1 for the convenience sake) there is always a creepy feeling.




I wonder if all the school built during that time uses the same design? I remember we ran up the stair and dash cross this everyday to go to the hall (Same direction as the boys walking in the picture), opposite direction will be toward the Teacher's office and General Office.

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Okay, 10 years flew so fast. Though we are on that campus for only 2.5 years but i had a great time there with my classmates and cohort. I missed that time that i am still skinny, using a broom chasing Ming Rong around the block cause he "proposed", the time when YY used to bully me, not forgetting having a crush with the senior (JA, CT) and also slacking our time away in the library during our library duty cause our library is hidden at a secluded block behind all the main activity block.

Ahhh,.. I still cannot believe 10 years just gone by so quickly and yes i am already a "OLD" undergraduate. And yes, officially bidding goodbye to the good old times back in Secondary School.
How i wish i can turn back to that period of time of wildness, maybe i would make a different choice to be with different people and work extra extra hard.

Beautiful memories will remains though time/people/environment changes. Well, i don't regret to the outcome of choices i made in the past. Instead of wasting time regretting, why not use the time to live the best out of it?

I'm positive about my life cause i believe some consequences in life can be made through small changes. Though i have my down time, i will get my feet up again as soon as i can. Love can change anything, i feel love that give me the power to move on from negative feeling.

Cheers to 2017, and it will be better than previous year.